A lost cause

A lost cause

Like a bird trapped in a cage,

Fighting so hard to break free.

My mind is locked in captivity,

Of the memories that  torment me

My heart feels so empty,

Wondering round feeling so lost.

Not knowing where I am going,

Or what this life has for me next.

The deep sadness inside,

Seems to never go away.

It gets hard to breath sometimes ,

As the hopelessness grips my mind.

The deep loneliness and isolation,

Keeps me feeling so low.

It doesn't matter how much i try,

The sadness won't go away.

I wasn’t always like this,

But through the years i've been so hurt.

When life just seems to beat me down,

At some point I just cracked..

It seems that no matter how hard I try,

Or when I think I've turned a corner,

I can't shake the deep despair in my heart,

Or the longing for it to be over.

I have to go on living for others,

But wish to God I didn't.

Because life has lost all meaning,

And any sense of purpose.

Loneliness is the worst kind of pain,

Living life all by yourself.

Sitting alone every single day,

And all you have is your thoughts.

I don't understand how I got here,,

I don't know what happened to my life.

I gave everything I had to everyone,

And somehow I got left alone.

I gave my whole heart to the people I loved,

I gave my best to everyone around me.

My purpose in life was to make everyone's life better,

But found I was never good enough for anyone around me.

The dark fog that clouds my mind,

The deep hurt that clouds my judgement,

The longing to be truly loved and wanted,

Keeps me feeling so sad broken.

I've lost all hope for my life,

And the dreams I once had in my heart.

All the things I desired to do with my life,

Seems impossible to reach.

How did I end up with nothing at all,

No home, No love, No wealth?

How did I end up so lost and alone,

Feeling so bound in my own thoughts?